*lorry - the one that got rammed by a lorry
Once again, just when i am starting to get hold of myself. Reality has to strike on me..
I seriously dont know how did it happen or why on earth would it happen?
That person simply deserves someone who is better? Not me but just someone who treats her way that she should be? But its the reality, the truth and the fact now. Just have to respect the decision and take it as it is. I can only pray for the best for that person. I very much want to be that very person for that person but situations often dont turn out the way i want it to.
yeah.. i dont want an explanation because it will just hurts if i were to hear it?
i m not that sad as in sad?
just devastated like why? why?
Was i even the catalyst of everything? I cant helped but to think that way. ARGH.........
i had an utterly good day?
DYING to have lunch with that person only to find out the truth and it was face to face. I would appreciate some notice in advance thou but f, it is better than never. AND NOW!! Macdonald that used to be a happy place to me, it shall never be. not anymore. I HATE KAP MAC!
rushed down to HV haagen diaz to find my comm girlies.
i m sorry that i made some of you dropped ur precious eye drops, especially peifen. Stop tempting me to drop mine.
silly girls: since all of you know that lorry loves to put on a strong front and that i dont want all of you to get all worried for me. yeah, i can count on u girls whenever i am down but i rather incubate in my little shell.
want to see all ur smileys soon kies? ")
congrats to sandra for finding ur hyundai guy hur. it is good that you are willing to take the first step. Just go crazy about it yeah..
while i was trying to indulge in my melon ice-cream, that person just has to pop by and wave at me? What was i thinking? I waved back and went on with my ice-cream when i saw that person's company. Do i have to witness it at this very day? Yeah, i bet it wasnt intentional, but why? why me? why at that very moment? After that person settled down at Breko, we met up for a while and i have to tell that person who has always been the important part of my life, my talking buddy, my closest friend, my scary telepathy mate to f off from my life and stop contacting for a month. Was it my fault? Why is it always my fault? Everything is my fault. argh.. what is wrong with me? Seriously, my brain needs an filter machine, one that disallows me to talk on impulse. yada yada, beryl would say it is my character makes me act accordingly to my very emotion at that time.
Back to school to submit our psychology report and off for training. Training was a breeze to me because i was all out to sweat it out, my frustration, my unhappiness and every bit.
Usually, we will follow the seniors and have dinner tgt but jasmine, yuting and me sneaked off -so-not-discreetly- to hv for dinner perhaps because we wanted a peaceful dinner?
Settled at crystal jade with congee for yuting and me and noodle for jasmine.
extracted some from jasmine's blog for i am bad at hanyupinying.
after Crystal Jade, we wanted dessert and we were caught between The Coffee Club (na ge ka fei ju le bu) and Gerlare (god help! we couldnt turn this into chinese).
we had such a hard time deciding so jasmine and i had to play scissors, paper, stone (shi tou jian dao bu) in the end, it was na ge ka fei ju le bu. yuting and i shared a this following dessert.
What is The coffee club's mud pie is called?
ans: muddy mud pie.
if u think u are damn smart, take the next qn.
What's muddy mud pie in chinese?
drum rolls................ans: Hen ni de ni tu pai
okays. i admit that it is pretty dumb but to the hell with it, we had a great laugh and i am impressed with how stopid and silly i can get whenever i am depressed..
to jojo: Yeah, know i cant hide it from you. I aint fine, but i wish i am fine. i will be, i shall be but dont you prefer the crappy me now? Totally able to entertain you.
thought things thru on my way back. i want everything to be fine? off to mug for my 20% maths quiz. Probably flunk it..
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I like to stop the clock, make time stands still
Cause, baby, that was just the way I always wanna feel