*lorry
i am so fucked up, caught up and trapped..
i have nowhere to voice out my anxiety but here to the computer. (to friends:i know you are always there for me but i just dont want to trouble anyone) Morning FINALLY came, we were texting one another but perhaps my hestitation to reply or rather 'i am bad at this kind of things, didnt know how to reply'. That person called me instead, it took me a while to decide whether should i answer the call. This is bad, might be the start of drifting apart but i remember i promised that i request that person not to distance away from me and so i shouldnt do so. I answered that call. Yeah, indeed it was another conversation that i usually enjoy.
ARGH..
after that, i didnt hear from that person till now when i am blogging now? It's been 8 hrs since i heard from that person and i hate that feeling. been takin out my phone and try to attempt to call that person instead but damn, i am sucha wuss. I dont want to bugging or irritating the hell of out of that person. crap... i sound like possessive daphne suddenly... yikes... kill my actively thinking brain cells pls.
btw, to jojo, my sharing mate: i wanted very much to call you up and confide in you but i tot that it might be rough for you so i want to seek ur understanding for not sharing with you.
to nat, my baby: i am not asking you to forgive or asking for your sympathy. i just want to say that for whatever that i have done to you, i meant nothing to hurt you. It just happened. Perhaps its the presence that i missed out for close to 1 and 1/2 yr. i am sorry.